Now I know going back home is supposed to be something you do around Thanksgiving, or Christmas time, but for those of us who can’t afford holiday airfare, we wait just a hair bit longer.
So I am on my track back to the state of O-H (and everyone else says??), and I must say I’m a mix of excited and…scared? I’m honestly not sure if that’s even the right word. Nonetheless, it’s been a pretty long time since I’ve been back home and to be honest, I’m not sure what to expect.
Sure, I still complain about how much my life is in a constant rut where I wake up every day to the same thing here in Sunny California, but at the same time, I’m starting to hit my comfortable stage. The stage where I KNOW what to expect in my day. Catch my drift?
Going home I’m going to be catching up with people I haven’t seen for weeks, months, and years! Not to mention I’m going to be in snow! I haven’t seen snow in a YEAR..now that’s pretty impressive (in my opinion) for a native Ohioan. I’ll be seeing how much everyone’s changed. My friends, my city..my home.
Now I’m not going to lie. If I look back five years from now and see myself where I am now..I think I would be a little disappointed, but this new year, I promised myself I would try and see things in a different perspective. For instance, last year, I would’ve seen myself as a failure. Someone who graduated from college but couldn’t get into her first choice grad school nor get a full time job AND struggling. When I could see myself as a recent college graduate, trying to find her direction, and is somehow managing living on her own in expensive California, but nonetheless, SURVIVING. Kinda makes it sound a little more positive..hopefully..
Well anyway, here’s to a new adventure in a new year. According to the Chinese New Year it’s the year of the sheep (my year!), so hopefully it’s a lucky one?
Or..I’ll just keep praying (: